Chapter 121: The Forgotten Heart (2)
Zhao Ziheng felt that he was hypocritical. He said that he only cared about one person, but actually did the opposite. He thought that he did it so that they could be together, but was it just his selfish thoughts? He thought that everything he did was for the two of them to be together, but he never seemed to think whether Yinyin thought the same way?
His chest was hurting again, and he couldn't tell whether it was the pain from the wound or the pain from his heart. The feeling seemed to have become numb, but his consciousness was still clear. However, the only thing that made Zhao Ziheng feel comforted was that he could still feel the pain. As long as he could feel the pain, it proved that he was still alive. But why did he feel his mind was blank?
In his mind, the scenes of the 21st century, Shu'er's figure and smile overlapped with Yin Yin's face. Zhao Ziheng vaguely remembered that on the night they got married he once said that even if the appearance had changed, the heart would remain the same, he just felt that she would leave... and the facts proved that his premonition was correct, since then they have been separated; Zhao Ziheng remembered very clearly that night of their first love, Yin Yin's shy look, her gentle eyes that would only show in front of him, and her tears of happiness, that short-lived happiness made Zhao Ziheng unforgettable for his whole life, he had wanted more than once to guard the hard-earned happy time with all his heart; however, happy times are always short, really very short, so short that if he hadn't been too happy he would have thought it was just a dream, during that time he had gained happiness he had never had before, but it ended in the cruelest way.
Even now, whenever Zhao Ziheng thought of the way Yinyin looked when he saw her again after escaping death, his heart was like being cut by a sharp blade; he never doubted Yinyin's love for him, he never doubted it, but only then did he realize that Yinyin's love for him was no less than his love for her, so when Yinyin was suffering from losing him and living as if she had lost her soul, Zhao Ziheng wanted to tear apart the culprit who forced her to lose her soul and live in pain, but in the end he held back. Why did he hold back? Zhao Ziheng forgot. But he did not forget everything Zhou Yan had done to Yinyin, especially when that incident happened...
Thinking of this, Zhao Ziheng stopped thinking. After a moment, he continued to recall. He remembered that he seemed to have completely lost his mind at that time. In the end, Wang Ye knocked him out and he slept for several days. If he was asked now whether he hated Zhou Yan, Zhao Ziheng would answer that he had hated him before, but he was numb to hatred now, and he knew that there was nothing wrong in loving someone.
Zhao Ziheng suddenly realized that even though he and Yinyin were apart more often than they were together in this era, his love for Yinyin only grew stronger. How much did he love her? Zhao Ziheng didn't know because there was no need.
"Half a year—"
Zhao Ziheng murmured, his eyes becoming empty and sad.
Half a month later.
Zhaoren Mansion of Zhou State.
Lei'er discovered that Yinyin felt noticeably different since she came back this time. She couldn't tell where, but she just felt like a completely different person. She still remembered Yinyin's smile when she just came back, which was clearly a very gentle smile, but it looked indescribably lonely and empty. Although Yinyin had had that expression before, it was mostly with a hint of sadness and melancholy. However, now, Lei'er felt that no emotion could be seen in her expression or eyes, as if she were an emotionless puppet.
Thinking of this, Lei'er was startled, stopped and shook her head violently.
"No, I must have seen it wrong!" Lei'er said to herself.
Afterwards, Lei'er quickly adjusted her mood and walked towards her destination.
The summer sun is always scorching hot. Lei'er walked through the familiar corridor and garden and came to [Gu Yue Xuan]. Because of the terrain and the surrounding environment, it is warm in winter and cool in summer. After entering [Gu Yue Xuan], Lei'er came to the terrace, where the white beast was sleeping peacefully...
Lei'er sighed softly and approached slowly. She found that since Yinyin came back, the white tiger has been following her closely. It was the same in the past, so she was not surprised. Although the white tiger was huge and showed its teeth and claws in front of outsiders, it was always as docile as a kitten in front of Yinyin. As long as she thought of this, Lei'er smiled. Soon she found that Yinyin was leaning against the white tiger and stretched out her hand to play with the white tiger's fur. Because Yinyin was dressed in white and her body seemed to be paralyzed in the arms of the white tiger, Lei'er had a momentary illusion that Yinyin's figure looked very illusory and looming as if it would disappear at any time...
Lei'er was startled and stopped just a few steps away from Yinyin, staring at Yinyin blankly; as for Yinyin, it was unclear whether she noticed Lei'er's arrival or not. She still patiently played with the white tiger's fur, and no emotion could be read in her eyes.
After a long while, Leier took a deep breath, then took a few steps forward, walked around to Yinyin, knelt down, put down the tray in her hand, and said with a smile: "This is iced sour plum soup, the lady asked me to bring it."
Yinyin ignored Lei'er's words. It was not known whether she really didn't hear them or what, but she had no reaction and continued to repeat the actions in her hands.
Looking at Yin Yin's appearance, Lei'er felt indescribably sad, as if she felt that her guess was confirmed. Her throat tightened a little. She opened her mouth and wanted to say something, but couldn't utter a word for a long time. She just stared at Yin Yin in a daze.
