Chapter 123 Heart Lock (5)
Yin Yin didn't answer. She moved her eyes to the teacup in her hand and rubbed the edge of the cup playfully.
"I no longer have any reason to hate. I just want to live peacefully day by day."
After a while, Yin Yin slowly spoke.
"Why?" Han Ji blurted out subconsciously, and after a pause, she continued: "If you really recovered your memory, wouldn't you want to go back to him? He's not dead, right?"
"What's the point of being alive? That's all in the past. I don't hate anyone, and of course I won't love anyone anymore. That's too much of a luxury for me. I've already experienced love and hate, so what else can I seek? Mom is my only relative now, and she's the only one who stays with me all the time. What else do I need? After going through so much, my life is already fulfilling. Apart from being able to spend the rest of my life quietly with Mom, I have nothing else to ask for."
"Do you mean you won't care about anything that happens now?" Han Ji asked.
"I don't have that right, right?" Yin Yin replied.
"What if Yan comes to see you?"
"That's his business."
"You want to leave here?"
“I think so.”
"He won't allow it."
"Why do I need his permission to go somewhere? The same goes for the emperor. I am just a little princess who was temporarily appointed by the former emperor. He can depose me at any time, but he cannot interfere in my life. Of course, if he uses this to convict me, I have nothing to say."
Yin Yin's words were too rational and too ruthless for Han Ji to believe.
"He will never let you go." Han Ji said with forbearance and meaningfulness.
"What can he do? Or what qualifications does he have? Just because he is a prince?" Yin Yin's tone was calm without a trace of emotion.
"He...you know he won't let you go."
Han Ji didn't know how to refute Yin Yin, but she felt that no matter how Yin Yin changed, the fact would always be the same, and Zhou Yan couldn't just sit back and watch.
"He is your husband, why do you indulge him so much? You can hate me, but do you really not hate him?"
Yinyin turned her gaze to Han Ji again. Somehow, even though it was a cold and calm gaze, Han Ji still felt that it could see through her heart. For a moment, she felt a little ashamed and avoided Yinyin's gaze in a somewhat embarrassed manner. This time, Han Ji did not refute Yinyin's words, because she didn't know if she really didn't hate her. And Zhou Yan, did she really not hate him? No, she didn't know, but there were some things she couldn't help. Even if she didn't hate him, she did say in front of Zhou Yan that she hated him. Han Ji still remembered that time.
"After so many things happened, I realized that some things will be fruitless even if you try to grasp and pursue them. Instead of forcing it, it is better to give up from the beginning, so that at least you can suffer less. It doesn't matter if you give up later, as long as it is not too late, just like me now. I don't have to think about anything and I feel much better than before. I won't feel heartache for anyone, I won't think about anyone, and I won't be in a bad mood all day. What's more, that person is not worth Sister Han Ji's pursuit and waiting, right? He can't give you anything. How much ?"
"Stop talking."
Han Ji subconsciously resisted Yin Yin's cruel words, perhaps because Yin Yin's words hit the nail on the head?
Ignoring Han Ji's resistance, Yin Yin continued to speak to herself: "You can't force feelings. I know very well that I used to think so. But even so, I still feel very guilty towards you. It feels like it's because of me that you are silently enduring the pain."
"Stop talking."
Han Ji held her head and shook it. Yin Yin's words slowly spread through her body like poison, and her voice frightened her.
"You love him, so you can silently endure him loving another woman, and you are accommodating to that woman in every way. You are great, and you let me know how insignificant I am, because I can't do that. I admit that I am selfish, because I hope that the person I love can only love me, but in the end I was wrong. That will never be possible . No matter how deep the feelings are, distance and time can erase them. Moreover, even if you use your own way, do you think that as long as you give, you will get rewards? No matter how blindly you tolerate and forgive, you can never force what is not yours."
"Stop talking, stop talking!!!"
Han Ji yelled out of control. Maybe what Yin Yin said was true, but it was too cruel, too brutal , especially for Han Ji. Every word and sentence of Yin Yin was like a needle piercing her heart. Han Ji couldn't believe it. She couldn't believe that these words came from Yin Yin's mouth, because she thought Yin Yin was the least likely person to say these words, but they came from Yin Yin's mouth.
"Why? Why do you say such cruel words? Why do you want to destroy other people's hopes when you yourself deny everything? When did you become so cruel?"
Han Ji almost shouted, every word was full of power, and her whole body was shaking with excitement.
Yinyin's reaction was still indifferent. She just stood there blankly, looking up at Han Ji from her limp position . She seemed to ignore Han Ji's anger, or accept it with pleasure? From her calm expression or eyes, no thoughts could be seen. What she said or Han Ji's reaction seemed to be very normal to her, so she didn't feel anything?
