Chapter 124: Love is Hard to Forget (6)
I don’t know how long it took, but crystal liquid flowed from Yin Yin’s wandering eyes. Guisha knew that Yin Yin already had the answer.
"What should I do?"
Yin Yin murmured, as if she was talking to the ghost, but also as if she was talking to herself.
What to do? Knowing that the person you love is dying, most people would go to see him as soon as possible, right? But Yinyin is different. As soon as she was fully awake, she put aside all her emotions. She couldn't make a decision because she still thought she could let it go , if it was before Guisha told Yinyin these things.
"Are you still in love with him?"
Guisha raised this question again, because he knew that this question was the key for Yinyin to be herself again. The answer was silence. There were many explanations for the silence, but in Guisha's opinion now, it would only make Yinyin waver.
"You can abandon yourself, you can isolate yourself, and no longer be shaken by anything in the outside world, but you still can't deceive yourself. You still have feelings for him."
Yin Yin had a different reaction to Guisha's words again. She slowly raised her hands and hugged her head.
"You can give up everything, but you can never forget him."
The words of the ghost gradually eroded Yin Yin's nerves like a ghost. She never avoided this topic and never escaped from anything, but when faced with it, her heart that should have been abandoned came back again. It was not obvious, but Yin Yin could still feel the feeling of loss slowly filling up the empty heart.
Time is passing slowly.
Guisha didn't say anything, and Yinyin didn't react excessively, and time continued to pass.
After a long time, Yin Yin seemed to have calmed down. She put down her hands and murmured: "Then what should I do?"
Yinyin had asked this question for the second time, but this was not the answer Guisha could give. He said: "Do it according to your own ideas."
"Your own thoughts?" Yin Yin murmured, repeating Guisha's words.
Guisha knew that what Yinyin lacked now was her own opinion. But if he didn't find the right direction, no matter what he said, it would be of no help to Yinyin, even though he had raised many topics that made him feel bitter.
Gradually, Yinyin was lost in thought as she stared out of the house, and the rumbling thunder seemed to give her an answer. The past scenes seemed to reappear in front of Yinyin's eyes. The one she remembered most was the stormy day on Fish Island. Thinking of this, Yinyin subconsciously raised her hand and touched her chest. It seemed that it was no longer so empty, and it even hurt a little. At the same time, the scene of Zhao Ziheng falling off the cliff that day flashed before her eyes. Yinyin subconsciously grabbed the collar of her chest again, as if the pain of that day had returned again...
Didn't she no longer have feelings for him? But Yinyin still wondered, when did she start wanting to see him so much when she lost her memory? Yinyin's thoughts went back to that night in Weicheng. He seemed to appear out of nowhere, and everything seemed so natural. Yinyin still remembered the hug when they said goodbye that night. Yinyin still remembered that only that person's hug could be so warm, making her willing to sink. And that tear, Yinyin knew it was a tear, he hugged her and cried.
Unconsciously, tears wet Yinyin 's face, but she was unaware and was still immersed in memories...
Looking at Yin Yin, Guisha knew that his efforts were not in vain as Yin Yin's heart was gradually won back. At the same time, he also felt extremely bitter because the tears of the person in front of him were not shed for him.
'I only have eyes for you.'
At that time, Yin Yin did not understand the real meaning of this sentence, but this sentence is undoubtedly the same as "In my heart, there is only", and Yin Yin did not know anything at that time, so when she thought of everything, she felt it was natural, but if she really thought about it, she would find it different, especially that period and Zhao Ziheng's expression at that time. What made him so painful?
Yinyin suddenly realized that she had made a basic mistake, the most common mistake between two people in love. She had never received confirmation from Zhao Ziheng from the beginning to the end. Everything she heard was from others. Even though she understood the principle of "no smoke without fire", only the person himself knew what was in his heart. Would Zhao Ziheng cheat on her? The answer is of course: No. For people in love, trust is based on the most basic emotion. It is because of love that they believe in each other. Moreover, if she only heard it from others and did not see it with her own eyes, would she consider it cheating?
Tears were flooding more and more. Yinyin found that she had never given Zhao Ziheng a chance to explain, or to ask him. Even if she had found him, she didn't stick to it and chose to escape . How hurtful would this be to Zhao Ziheng? If he knew that she was avoiding him, if he knew that the reason for avoiding him was because of distrust, what would he think? Of course, Yinyin did not forget that it was Zhao Ziheng who chose to escape first, but she did not ask for the reason, and finally escaped from him for a reason that was taken for granted.
"I love him—"
Yin Yin, who had been silent for a long time, suddenly uttered these three words with a trembling mouth. It seemed as if these three words were finally spoken after countless years. Although her voice was a little hoarse due to crying, it could be heard that they were the truth from the bottom of her heart.
Guisha closed his eyes. He didn't want to see or hear.
Can't forget, can't let go...
Maybe Yinyin can forget everything, but what she can't give up in the end is love!
