Chapter 126: Reading (6)
In any case, when Wang Ye was mentioned, Zhao Ziyan's heart felt instantly relaxed, because this made him ignite a glimmer of hope, yes, hope!
"Since you have made up your mind, I believe I can't stop you, but I really want to know what drives you to do this? It's unnecessary now, isn't it? Don't you want to use this last moment to find her?"
Even though it was extremely helpless and cruel, Zhao Ziyin had to tell a fact, which should be of vital importance to Zhao Ziheng, so Zhao Ziyin longed for an answer; for now, once he separated from Zhao Ziheng, it would most likely be the final farewell, so before that, Zhao Ziyin hoped to know what Zhao Ziheng really thought.
"Why do you think it's unnecessary?"
Unexpectedly, Zhao Ziheng's tone was surprisingly cold when he answered. He knew what Zhao Ziyin wanted to ask, but he did not answer. Instead, he seized on a certain topic in the question.
Zhao Ziyin was shocked by Zhao Ziheng's sudden reaction. He never expected that Zhao Ziheng's tone would suddenly become so cold. That sentence was actually unintentional. He didn't want to put pressure on Zhao Ziheng anymore. He just wanted to know why Zhao Ziheng did this. Why didn't he spend my last time with the person I love the most? That's all. He didn't expect Zhao Ziheng to bring up this sentence. He didn't expect it, so he didn't know how to answer. But in a flash, Zhao Ziyin thought again, why not? Isn't this a good opportunity? He can know what Zhao Ziheng is thinking.
Just as Zhao Ziyin was trying to figure out how to start, Zhao Ziheng's voice had already sounded: "I miss her so much that I'm going crazy. I want to see her right away, but it's all unrealistic, isn't it? I admit that everything I did was for her, and I admit that I'm selfish, but that doesn't mean I'll choose her regardless of everything at this time; from the beginning when I chose this path, I don't deny that I wanted to give up countless times along the way and wanted to go directly to her, but I can't do that, because doing so would make her look down on me, and I understand that a behavior that has a beginning but no end is not suitable for me, even if the price is my life; I want to finish everything I should do, and don't want to escape from anything, and then face her. I want to tell you, it's not that I don't want to see her, it's not that I don't miss her, and it's not that I have to find her, it's because I don't know where she is. Finding her? It's easy, but how much time do I have? How much energy do I have if I want to be there? Instead of wasting my time on ignorant things, it's better to spend time on things that can be solved, because you have to face them anyway."
Zhao Ziheng's tone was very calm, like clear water without any ripples, but Zhao Ziyin heard more helplessness and determination. From his words, Zhao Ziyin felt that Zhao Ziheng had almost never thought that he could live to see Yinyin, but at least he would do it to end it all. What made him insist so much? The answer is self-evident. Apart from his obsession with one person, life no longer has any meaning for Zhao Ziheng. The happiness he wants seems simple, but it is completely different from that of ordinary people. It is really different. He wants to give her not only happiness, but also peace. Only in peace can they truly get happiness. This is the only possibility for them to be happy together with different identities in this troubled world.
So that's why Zhao Ziheng would do it at all costs, right? Zhao Ziyin thought so.
He also gambled his life. Even though it was not their fault, nor was it their fault, to be dragged into this turbulent era, he made good use of his identity and gave up everything to quell this war without any warning, just for peace? Just to be with his beloved... It was so simple, and so heavy. It turned out that everything was just for an obsession. Obviously, Zhao Ziyin still regarded Zhao Ziheng too simply, and obviously regarded Zhao Ziheng's feelings for Yinyin as too ordinary. It was simple but not simple, and ordinary but not ordinary.
When Zhao Ziyin figured it all out, he realized how much Zhao Ziheng had really given. How could it be summed up as selflessness? What he was carrying was no longer important. Zhao Ziyin could not find any words to summarize the truth he knew. It was no longer something that could be summed up in words or feelings. If he had to say something, Zhao Ziyin could only say: Why is there war in the world? Why is Zhao Ziheng not the only emperor in the world? Why do people who can be happy have to pay so much?
However, all of this is due to the fact that God is always unfair and extremely cruel, and there is no reason for all of this.
"I'm not as great as you think, because from the beginning to the end, I only did this because I wanted to be with her, so please alleviate my guilt. At least this is all I can do now."
Zhao Ziyin looked at Zhao Ziheng in a daze and found that he was speechless. There are many kinds of emotions. In Zhao Ziyin's opinion, love should be the most ordinary. However, since he has witnessed the relationship between Zhao Ziheng and Yinyin until now, he is still a little confused, but he has to be impressed by Zhao Ziheng's obsession; what makes Zhao Ziyin even more incomprehensible is that even if Zhao Ziheng only has one purpose, he has never lost himself, will not sacrifice everything for selfish reasons, will not give up the ultimate goal because of temporary confusion, he knows what he wants and what he should do from beginning to end, so he will keep striving towards the ultimate goal.
