Chapter 127: Dark Butterfly (3)
Unconsciously, Guisha raised his right hand and gently placed it on his left shoulder. He turned his head and looked at Guisha's unconscious action and fell into deep thought. Yinyin felt even more guilty. She knew very well that Guisha's words were nothing more than comfort. How could she not know that Guisha would be so seriously injured if she was not there? And...
"She... doesn't know what happened to Fengxue."
Yin Yin carefully mentioned that she had not forgotten that Feng Xue stayed behind alone to protect her when she was attacked.
Guisha was not in deep thought, so he immediately responded to Yinyin's words, but he did not answer. Instead, he just glanced at Yinyin and stood up; Yinyin didn't understand why, but after seeing this, she also stood up.
"Don't think too much. When we meet, we will meet again. When we can't meet, don't force it."
Guisha said calmly as usual, very practically, it was nothing more than that if he was alive he would naturally be able to see him, but if he was dead he would naturally not be able to see him. Guisha could answer Yinyin like this, but he knew very well in his heart that it was impossible for Fengxue to escape under such circumstances; in short, he would definitely fall into the hands of the enemy, and based on his understanding of phantom spirits, the possibility of Fengxue's survival was very slim. Of course, he did not want to tell Yinyin such a cruel answer, so he planned to let Yinyin have a little hope.
Yinyin knew that the ghost was injured in that situation. Even when both of them were there, they failed to escape safely, let alone one person? It was just that Yinyin didn't want to face that result. It was too cruel. After all, she knew that Fengxue stayed because of her. Thinking of this, Yinyin felt something stuck in her throat and her eyes were a little wet, but she forced the tears down because she couldn't cry. Yinyin had shed too many tears along the way. Only now did Yinyin understand crying was a sign of cowardice. Since she decided to take this path, she couldn't continue to be so cowardly. It was because of her cowardice that so many people stood up to protect her. Her cowardice caused one life after another to end because of her. Now Fengxue's life and death were uncertain, so she couldn't cry. Even if she wanted to cry, she had to find her first, regardless of life or death.
It was not the first time that Yinyin discovered the fragility . She did not know when she first discovered that life was so fragile. The biggest reason was the change in the environment. If she had not come to this era, if she had not witnessed the death of so many innocent lives, Yinyin would not have known that life was so fragile and insignificant. Although each era is different, it cannot change that innocent lives will be ruthlessly taken away. Even if you are innocent, disasters will always come, not to mention this chaotic world. Yinyin knows that if there is no peace in the chaotic world, there will be more innocent victims.
Everyone will die, and Yin Yin knows that she is no exception. However, she has never thought that someone will die because of her. When she thinks of those innocent people who died because of her, Yin Yin feels suffocated. After recovering her memory and finding herself again, Yin Yin knows that she will never be able to get rid of it. Yin Yin finds that compared with what happened to her, those people who died for no reason because of her are a nightmare that she cannot get rid of. At first, she even thought about dying, but for her selfish thoughts, she chose to endure the humiliation and live. Yin Yin has long let go of her own life and death, but she longs to confirm one thing before she dies. Therefore, before that, she cannot die, even if she will go to hell after death, even if she has to carry the souls of those innocent people who died because of her, she must live and see the most important person in her life.
"Don't think too much."
The voice of Guisha suddenly sounded, pulling Yinyin back to reality from her deep thought. Yinyin woke up in shock, only to be greeted by Guisha's usual expressionless face.
"Everyone will die one day, just in different ways. Even if it is not your own choice, death is inevitable, and it is the same for you and me."
As if he could see through Yin Yin's thoughts, Guisha spoke calmly.
Yinyin did not deny that what Guisha said was true, and she also admitted that what he said made sense. However, for some reason, Yinyin felt that Guisha's attitude towards life and death was different from others a long time ago. Should we say that Guisha was not afraid of life and death? Or should we say that he simply disdained life and death? Whether it was towards himself or others, Guisha seemed to always maintain a consistent indifferent attitude, as if he didn't care even if he died at any time. Yinyin wanted to know why Guisha looked down on life and death so much? His definition of life was contemptuous, and he regarded life as worthless, including himself.
No matter how she thought about it, Yin Yin might never know that even if Guisha really believed that all human lives were worthless, there was one person's life that was more important to him than anything else. It should be said that he would only think that only that person's life was the most important, more important than anything else, and that person was her. However, Guisha would never say this, and even Feng Qinghan, who knew this, would not say it, so Yin Yin would never know.
"I'll go get some water and food. You stay here and don't run around."
"I'll go with you."
Just as he finished speaking and was about to leave, Yin Yin's voice rang out, so Guisha stopped, turned around and looked at Yin Yin; if possible, Guisha didn't want to take Yin Yin around, as it was very dangerous in an uninhabited place, not to mention that there were dangers everywhere around him, but looking at Yin Yin, Guisha couldn't refuse, so he had to nod, then turned around and left, and Yin Yin hurriedly followed.
