Chapter 139: Two-Year Agreement (5)
The so-called explanation usually refers to the result. Is there still room for them? Feng Jingyi couldn't help but ignite a glimmer of hope in her heart. She chose to leave before because she was desperate... Speaking of which, Feng Jingyi didn't know when she was found and who found her. Was it Shan Zhen? Feng Jingyi didn't dare to guess easily, and Shan Zhen didn't ask, so she didn't want to bring it up again. Since she could still see a glimmer of hope now, why couldn't she hold on to a little hope?
When Feng Jingyi thought Shan Zhen would say further, Shan Zhen unexpectedly remained silent. Although it was unexpected, it also seemed expected. Feng Jingyi felt a little disappointed again. She really didn't understand what Shan Zhen was thinking. Sometimes his heart was easy to understand, but sometimes it was very difficult to understand.
The silence lasted for a long time. Just when Feng Jingyi couldn't stand the silence anymore and wanted to turn around, Shan Zhen's voice finally rang out again. He said: "Am I really... so worthy of your efforts?"
Feng Jingyi opened her eyes wide again. She had never dreamed of Dan Zhen's question, so she didn't know how to answer for a moment.
"Forget it, just have a good rest." Seeing that Feng Jingyi didn't answer, or didn't want to hear the answer at all, Shan Zhen quickly responded.
As soon as he finished speaking, Shan Zhen stood up and left, but as soon as he turned around, Feng Jingyi hugged him from behind. This action stunned Shan Zhen.
In fact, Feng Jingyi didn't know where this strength came from, she just felt that she would lose something if she didn't do this. By the time she reacted, her body had already reacted before her brain... The pain all over her body seemed to disappear at this moment. Feng Jingyi hugged Shan Zhen tightly, trembling unconcealably.
"I, I want to tell you... I really love you, that's all, I have never lied to you..." Feng Jingyi suppressed the excitement in her heart and said with a trembling voice. She didn't dare to let go, fearing that if she let go, Shan Zhen would leave, forever, so she continued : "I know... I have always known that you have someone you like, and I also know who that person is, but I don't mind, really... I just want to love you... I really love you."
For a long time, there was no sound in the room. Everything seemed to be still, with only Feng Jingyi's delicate arms trembling. She hugged Shan Zhen from behind, waiting for his answer with anxiety. She was very scared... afraid that Shan Zhen would give her a cruel answer. She regretted what she had said, and was just afraid that there would be a cruel result. So before that result came, she just wanted to hug him tightly, even if she died the next moment.
"I trust you."
It was unknown how long it had passed before Feng Jingyi heard these words. It was Shan Zhen's deep voice. Feng Jingyi felt very surprised and wondered if she had heard it wrongly. Just when Feng Jingyi was doubting the authenticity of these words, Shan Zhen released her arms that were around him and turned around. Because Feng Jingyi was kneeling on the bed, her line of sight was just level with Shan Zhen's. It was the first time that she and Shan Zhen looked at each other at the same height. Feng Jingyi could clearly see Shan Zhen's eyes, and Shan Zhen could also see her eyes.
Shan Zhen held Feng Jingyi's arms and said slowly: "I believe you, but I don't deserve you to treat me like this, and I don't know that you have paid so much, do you know?"
"No, you deserve it, you deserve it. As long as it's for you, no matter how much I pay, it's worth it." Feng Jingyi immediately refuted Shan Zhen's words. She was obviously a little agitated. She was worried that her words would not be able to convince Shan Zhen, and that he would not believe her.
"You are a good woman. You can find someone better than me to love you. You shouldn't be so good to someone like me, and I am not worthy of your efforts. Just as you said, I have someone I love. Since you know who that person is, you should understand how much I love her. So am I worthy of your love?" Shan Zhen's tone was surprisingly calm, or even calm. Every word he spoke was so clear that it was difficult for people to hear clearly.
Feng Jingyi shook her head, tears silently flowing from her eyes. Her blue lips opened and closed as if she wanted to say something. Maybe she really said something, but no sound could be heard.
Shan Zhen saw what Feng Jingyi was thinking, so he said: "I know what you want to say, but you should know that once you fall in love, you will continue to love even if that person loves someone else in his heart. I am the same. I don't intend to deny this. I have always been avoiding it, but now I don't want to escape. This is what you taught me, so I am not qualified to be loved by you."
Feng Jingyi still shook her head. She wanted to retort loudly, she wanted to say that she didn't mind, but she couldn't utter a word because Shan Zhen's eyes were so sad. This could be said to be the first time that Shan Zhen had shown such an emotional side in front of her, revealing his feelings without reservation. She knew how much Shan Zhen loved that person, his love was no less than hers, so she could understand; but despite this, even if she could appreciate and understand, it didn't mean that she would give up.
"I'm very grateful that you love me, and I'm also very grateful that you have been by my side for so long when I needed you the most, but I did nothing and pushed you away time and time again. So, even if I don't care about your identity or who you are, for your own sake, I am not your best choice and destination, do you understand? But, if you can forgive me, we can be friends, and I will no longer treat you as an enemy. If possible, I can also be your brother." Shan Zhen held Feng Jingyi's shoulders tightly, forcing himself to ignore the trembling coming from those delicate shoulders, and said everything in his heart.
