Chapter 145: The Young Prince (5)
He took a long breath to adjust his mood, then raised his hands and placed them on Yinyin's shoulders, turned her towards him, looked at her, and said: "Believe me, I won't let anyone hurt you again. Even if someone does, it will be after I die."
Yin Yin looked at Zhou Yan in astonishment. She didn't understand why Zhou Yan suddenly said that, but she clearly felt fear in her heart. A sense of uneasiness spread and made her inexplicably panic. She shook her head and opened her mouth to tell him that she didn't hate him, but she couldn't say anything because she had lost her voice.
However, Yinyin's shaking head meant denial to Zhou Yan. He felt very disappointed and smiled bitterly in his heart. Yes, how could he be forgiven? Isn't trust another meaning of believe? If he couldn't be forgiven, what was the point of trust? How could he make her believe if he couldn't get her trust?
Suppressing the feeling of loss in his heart, Zhou Yan suddenly pulled Yin Yin into his arms and hugged her tightly, and said in a trembling voice in her ear: "It doesn't matter if you don't believe it, I will prove it with my actions, so it doesn't matter if you hate me, as long as you are no longer in pain, it doesn't matter what you want, I am willing to bear it, it is what I deserve."
In Zhou Yan's arms, Yin Yin shook her head violently. She seemed to be aware of what Zhou Yan had done, so she wanted to shout and tell him what she thought. She did not hate him. She just hoped that he could be nicer to Han Ji. Moreover, this time he did this for Han Ji's sake. Yin Yin was even relieved for this because she knew that Zhou Yan had Han Ji in his heart. So she didn't care about anything else as long as Zhou Yan really cared about Han Ji.
Feeling Yin Yin's reaction in his arms, Zhou Yan regarded it as a struggle, so he slightly retracted his arms and continued: "Don't worry, I won't bother you anymore after this is over. I will let you go and pursue your own happiness. It doesn't matter even if it means returning to him, as long as you are happy."
Zhou Yan's words sounded like a goodbye. Yin Yin felt a strong sense of uneasiness in her heart. She wanted to break free from Zhou Yan's arms and tell him everything, but she couldn't. Just when Yin Yin didn't know what to do, Zhou Yan suddenly let go of her and distanced himself. Yin Yin looked at Zhou Yan and was motionless for a moment.
Seeing the shock on Yin Yin's face, Zhou Yan smiled bitterly and said: "Don't doubt the truth of this sentence. I mean what I say, but I still want to tell you that I don't know what the road ahead will be like, but I promise you that I will protect you and will definitely let you return to that person safely."
Yin Yin looked at Zhou Yan in a daze, forgetting to react, forgetting what she should have said to him, forgetting everything, as if nothing was real. Why did Zhou Yan in front of her feel a little strange? The person who had always believed that he would not be defeated by anything was so fragile at this moment, and his tone was more like a kind of despair than fragile; Yin Yin was not unfamiliar with the word "despair", but she couldn't figure out what could make Zhou Yan in front of her feel desperate. Was it herself? No, or was it Han Ji? Yin Yin couldn't be sure, but what she could be sure of was that Huan Ling must have said something to Zhou Yan, otherwise Zhou Yan would never be like this, let alone this series of behaviors.
Yinyin could not say that she had an absolute understanding of Zhou Yan, but she had a certain degree of understanding. This man who had been entangled with her and tortured her to death, she believed that he would not be defeated by anything, let alone threatened by anything. So Huanling could actually threaten Zhou Yan, so it must be something serious, right? From Huanling's previous words, Yinyin could only guess that it must be related to Han Ji. As for what it was, Yinyin could not think of any other reason except that Han Ji's life was threatened or something else.
Zhou Yan stared at Yin Yin, not knowing that Yin Yin had already immersed herself in another world of thought. He regarded Yin Yin's meditation as an escape. He endured the pain in his heart and slowly spoke softly: "Tell me, have you...ever loved me?"
This sentence awakened Yin Yin's mind. She looked at Zhou Yan with wide eyes in astonishment, as if she felt that there was a hint of pleading in Zhou Yan's words. Was it an illusion? Regardless of whether it was an illusion or not, Yin Yin did not ignore what Zhou Yan asked.
Have you loved before? Maybe yes, maybe no, maybe at some time when Yinyin didn't know, and now, except Zhao Ziheng, Yinyin will not fall in love with anyone, because her heart can only be given to one person, even if it is Feng Qinghan, although that is also love, but it is not love, that is to say, she can say that she loves him, but it does not mean that it is love, but who can understand this kind of thinking? Since she can't understand, then how can she say it? She can only remain silent.
Perhaps he saw through Yin Yin's thoughts, or perhaps he simply didn't expect anything, Zhou Yan hugged Yin Yin again and said sadly: "It doesn't matter, it doesn't matter if you have never loved, I just hope that in the future you will occasionally remember that there was someone who loved you deeply."
In Zhou Yan's arms, Yin Yin silently shed tears. She didn't know why she was crying. She only knew that when she felt Zhou Yan's fragile heart at this moment, she couldn't control herself. Yin Yin never figured out why Zhou Yan loved her, why Zhou Yan was so persistent in her. Even though he had never loved her, Yin Yin could still feel that his heart that loved her deeply had never changed. She couldn't guarantee that she would not fall in love with him if it weren't for Zhao Ziheng, but she was sure that she would not be able to leave him...
