Chapter 53 Postscript (Part 3) What can she say? It's all in the past...

What can she say? It's all in the past, and she doesn't understand it at all, and doesn't want to get involved.

They chatted casually, looking up at the clock, it was almost ten o'clock.

Xiaozhen tilted her head to watch TV, and said softly: "I'm hungry."

Qiao Yihua came back from the phone, got up and took off his clothes and went to the kitchen before sitting down.

From her perspective, it seems that his figure is a little better than before, and he is completely different from the young man who used to speak a little poisonous. It seems that he deliberately lowered his tone to pretend to be deep, with a sense of superiority mixed with the sense of being a husband.

What is the sense of being a husband? When I was tired of shopping with my colleagues, I sat in the coffee shop and looked outside. If I looked a little similar, I would comment on it. Later, a man received unanimous praise and had a strong sense of being a husband. Xiaozhen didn't understand, and asked what the sense of being a husband was.

Gentle in bed, suitable for the family, with the aura of a good man who lives at home after marriage.

Qiao Yihua didn't have the previous one, but he had the aura of a married man with children.

Xiaozhen put down the cup and went to the kitchen. She didn't want to spoil the fun and said, "Don't prepare it. I don't want to eat rice noodles."

He stopped what he was doing. "What?"

She said a little cunningly, "I love wonton noodles now."

Qiao Yihua also tried

his best. He really went downstairs to buy frozen wontons and noodles. Well, in fact, he could just go to the store and pack them up and bring them back, but he insisted on making them himself.

Qiao Xiaozhen knew that he had a purpose, so she would do it no matter what he asked her to do. Her unfamiliar cutting skills at least showed that she hadn't cooked for a long time.

Yes, who would let a listed company boss who was busy with all kinds of things and taking care of children cook every day.

However, he was happy, and Xiaozhen was too lazy to ask more.

He cooked very quickly.

After tasting it, it tasted good. After eating, he consciously went to clean the pots, bowls and cutting boards.

When he came back from washing his hands, he heard him answering the phone. His tone was very gentle. I don't know if it was intentional, and he turned on the hands-free. Xiaoxi kept calling him in a baby voice, "Dad, Dad."

Finally, he started crying and shouting for "Dad" or "Mom". The nanny said a few words and hung up the phone.

Qiao Xiaozhen was on the balcony, holding her chin and looking out the window. In fact, she was really afraid of all forms of kidnapping. What would she do if she was told affectionately that the child needed the mother's love and care?

Unexpectedly, Qiao Yihua did not mention this matter.

After sitting on the sofa and watching TV for a while, he took out the key of the house: "Let's live here in the future."

It's in the city center, convenient to go anywhere, the environment is quiet, and there is no need to pay rent.

Refusing would seem very hypocritical.

She sat back on the sofa, picked up the water cup and bit the straw, thinking about how to answer.

"What about you? Where do you stay when you are on a business trip?"

"Live at the door." Qiao Yihua joked a little seriously, "Don't you have a place for me to live in so many rooms?"

Xiaozhen: "Actually, it's pretty good for me to live there. It's not far from the subway entrance. It's enough to go to work at 8:30 and get up at 7:30 every day. The weather in Shenzhen is hot, so you won't be unable to get out of bed in winter."

Qiao Yihua felt like he had hit a wall. Everything he did was rejected. He should be annoyed, but she didn't try to explore his expression or whether he was unhappy.

Perhaps he felt that the conversation was not going anywhere, so he leaned on the sofa and remained silent for a while. "I have something to do later, which may take three hours. Wait for me here."

He picked up his clothes and put them on to prepare to go out. Xiaozhen followed him to the door and whispered, "Why do you have to do this? I've forgotten everything before."

Qiao Yihua looked down at her, not angry or showing much expression. He reached out and gently touched her face, "Let's talk about it this afternoon."

Xiaozhen wanted to leave without saying goodbye. She lay on the sofa and thought about it. This time was different from the last time they met. Last time they were strangers, but this time it was very awkward, like a forced melon, and it was uncomfortable to get along with each other. She

fell asleep while thinking about it.

When she opened her eyes, Qiao Yihua was sitting on the sofa next to her, watching TV, and it was the same channel she had turned on before going to bed.

Xiaozhen was dazed and whispered, "What time is it?"

"Two ten."

She hummed, took off the thin blanket on her body, and said, "It's hot."

After being in a daze for a while, she got up to wash her face, combed her hair, put on some light makeup, and came out and picked up her bag, "I'm leaving."

Qiao Yihua looked at her, and Xiaozhen didn't dare to open the door without saying anything.

The game for adults is very simple. Qiao Xiaozhen sat down next to him and said ambiguously: "You can do whatever you want now, otherwise I will leave."

They were so close that everyone could feel the lingering atmosphere.

From yesterday when he entered the door until now, there was an atmosphere of restraint all the time. At first, she was not very happy about this one-night stand. Today, he really did what a good man should do, so it's no big deal to come once.

Qiao Yihua was not moved at all, with a shallow smile, peeled a lychee and stuffed it into her mouth.

She moved to sit aside: "Brother, you are becoming more and more old-fashioned and conservative."

"I hope to see you more often in the future."

Xiaozhen said faintly: "You will always find a way to find me."

"I can't." He said, "Can I install a tracker on you?"

Qiao Xiaozhen: "Are you thinking of asking me to repay you? I will pay you back regularly starting from next month."

He was a little disappointed and explained again: "I said, I have never thought of raising you like a canary. You can do whatever you want. If you like your current job, I won't interfere. I hope you can call me once every two weeks to tell me about your situation, or send an email."

Xiaozhen: "Do you know how old I am?"

"I was your age when I met you."

Xiaozhen didn't expect him to answer like this, and her heart softened, and she was no longer defensive and polite.

"Are you not doing well? I have always known that your friends don't like me. You see, you have been smooth sailing after I left."

Qiao Yihua no longer cares about other people's views and opinions. He needs to make decisions personally for everything he has experienced.

He didn't want to beat around the bush and asked for an answer directly, "You have made up your mind, right?

You won't change your mind now? You won't change your mind no matter how much time passes in the future, right?" "Don't force me." Qiao Xiaozhen was full of grievances, "Didn't you ask me to sign an abandonment agreement when we just met? Why are you saying that now? Do I have to listen to you if you change your mind every three days?"

She picked up her bag and ran away.

Qiao Yihua walked quickly, grabbed her arm, and pushed her against the door.

"Why? Are you going to force me again?" She pushed him away, "Go away!"

"I don't want to quarrel with you. I thought about it many times before coming to Shenzhen. I will never interfere with what you want to do. But Xiaozhen, shouldn't I know your whereabouts?"

"How about knowing it? What do you want to do with it? Use the child to tie me up?"

Qiao Yihua was slightly angry: "What are you talking about? That's our daughter, our child."

Xiaozhen held back her tears and said, "It's your child, your daughter, yours. It's yours from beginning to end. When have you ever cared about mine?"

He accidentally stepped on a landmine. The reason why he asked her to give up the custody rights when they met last time was that he had invested too much energy and love in this child over the years. Seeing the mother of the child, he would have a very instinctive possessive desire. As a mother, she has a natural legal advantage.

"Can you stop talking about this?" She regained her senses. "Let's just leave it like this. It can only be like this." Qiao Yihua's facial muscles trembled slightly, and he hugged her to his arms. It seemed as if she was a scumbag who abandoned her husband and children, and he was the affectionate man she had been pursuing. 

Qiao Yihua leaned his head against her and asked, "This is the answer you gave me, right?" 

Qiao Xiaozhen's face was a little hot from his breath. She turned her face to one side and said twice in a row, "Yes, yes." He stopped pestering her and let her go. "Wait for me." 

He walked to the bedroom and took out a business card from his briefcase. Qiao Xiaozhen took it and looked at it. It was the doctor's contact information and address. 

"At that time, the doctor told me that your anemia was a bit serious. The best doctor is in Guangzhou. We were supposed to come and see you after you finished your confinement. I don't know how you are now. If you have time, go and check it out. Tell me your name and you can make an appointment." 

She loved nosebleeds during pregnancy. She took iron supplements for two months and had a few nosebleeds during the confinement period. The doctor didn't say it was serious, so she didn't take it seriously. 

Shenzhen is very humid, so nosebleeds are rare. Last year, the company did a physical examination, but didn't notify me of any problems. Maybe it was just a simple check of blood pressure, weight, blood sugar, and fat, which would not involve more comprehensive things. 

What reaction did he want Xiaozhen to have? Gratitude or being moved. 

Working away from home for these years, she is different from her colleagues around her. No one will call to ask if she will go back to her hometown during the Spring Festival. No family members will urge her to get married every few days. No one will call to tell her what to pay attention to when a typhoon comes, and no one will care about her health when she is sick, and whether she has protected herself during the epidemic. 

Going out and adapting to living alone in a short time, taking body temperature alone during the Spring Festival to avoid infection and eating instant noodles. 

She shouldn't get so angry with him. 

"Brother, I...I...I'm very healthy." 

"Then what else?" Qiao Yihua smiled, "It can't be a terminal illness." 

"Remember when I was your age, I traveled all over the world. No one could control me. I did whatever I wanted. I wanted to try and own everything as I pleased. That's why I insisted on taking you away and bringing you to my side. There was no reason. I was brave and afraid of nothing. You have always been very smart and thoughtful. I understand your situation. Now I am much older. I no longer want to have everything. Loss is not that important, but I also care about many things." 

He sincerely asked Xiaozhen to stop her wandering thoughts and said it very clearly. Qiao Xiaozhen understood very well, "Brother, it's different. You are a man and I am a woman. I don't have more choices. I'm just an ordinary person who is a little lucky." 

Qiao Yihua smiled dumbly, "You are still ordinary. You can drink, talk, and do things. Well... you are pretty." 

Qiao Xiaozhen laughed, her eyes curved, and asked playfully, "Did my boss tell you?" 

"You are willing to endure hardships and study. You also said that it's a pity that you married and had children so early. You met the wrong person. Otherwise, you could have married a better family." He narrated lightly, "You have some conscience to tell others that you are married and have children." 

Qiao Xiaozhen corrected: "I didn't say I was married, I just said I had children." 

The atmosphere was a little more relaxed. Qiao Yihua stretched out both hands to hold her arm. Just as she was about to do something, her cell phone rang. 

She said "Come up directly." and hung up. 

After a while, the doorbell rang, and an assistant in a suit and two female shop assistants in work clothes came over and brought a few sets of clothes and shoes. 

He took out his bank card and the POS machine on site. The female shop assistant said: "I'm sorry, Mr. Qiao, my colleague in Shanghai told you to ask for the size and style. It should have been delivered in the morning. When adjusting the goods, I found that the buttons had scratches and replaced them with another one, which delayed a little time. This scarf is the latest model to arrive, and I brought it to you in advance." 

After so many years, he still loves to buy clothes. 

For rich people, getting the latest model is much more face-saving than giving gifts to apologize. 

After swiping the card, the three people nodded very politely and said goodbye. 

He has always had a good aesthetic sense. Perhaps branded clothes look good on the body. Xiaozhen has never made a mistake in wearing them for so many years. 

She sat down on the sofa again. "Do you think I'm unsophisticated or that I don't look good in what I wear now?" 

He continued to peel lychees. Perhaps because this question was boring, he did not answer. He took out his mobile phone from his pocket and said, "Please enter your mobile phone number." 

"No." 

"You know it's easy for me to find it." 

Qiao Xiaozhen said very honestly, "I really don't have any. I send emails to work matters. No one calls me at ordinary times, so I don't call others." 

"Where are my colleagues?" 

"I don't like to communicate with my colleagues privately. I just go to work when I have something to do. I like to be alone." 

Qiao Yihua raised her head and felt a little unfamiliar with the woman in front of her. Except for the unchanged voice, she looked like a mature woman. There was 

no trace of immaturity on her face. Qiao Yihua peeled five and put them on the fruit plate, then went to wash her hands. "Go get one. If you don't have time, I'll ask my assistant to go." 

She sipped her herbal tea and just watched TV without answering. 

"Brother, are you getting married again?" 

This question came out of nowhere. 

Qiao Yihua wiped her hands with a wet wipe, "You look like you're going to break up with me, why do you care about this?" 

"It's okay, just pretend I didn't say anything." 

When they met in Mr. Xu's office, she saw him wearing a ring on his hand. He didn't seem to see it when they met a few times afterwards. I don't know if he deliberately put it away. 

I couldn't help but say again: "I saw you hiding the ring." 

Qiao Yihua: "I wear the ring to avoid trouble." 

"..." Qiao Xiaozhen thought about it. Not to mention that he was married for the second time and had a child, there should be people willing to marry him after he was in prison. She snorted. 

He didn't mention it, and said, "Xiaozhen, come here." Then he walked to the bedroom. 

Xiaozhen got up from the sofa after a while and walked over to lean against the bedroom door. 

He had a yellow-green long skirt on his arm and a document in one hand, "Take it, I didn't buy this dress." 

She came out for a checkup during her pregnancy and saw this skirt in the window of the street. It was not expensive, and it was a slim waist skirt. She couldn't wear it at the time. After buying it, she put it in the bedroom and never opened it again. 

Qiao Yihua crumpled up the document of giving up custody that he signed last time and threw it into the trash can in front of her. 

Qiao Xiaozhen was amused, "Why? Why throw it away? Don't throw it away." 

"I have no right to deprive you of your right to be her mother." Destroy the evidence of what has been done and pretend it never existed. A faint smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, "She is young and her temper is sometimes really like yours." 

Qiao Xiaozhen didn't know how to respond. 

Qiao Yihua: "Let's have dinner together tonight." 

"Are there many people?" 

"Just the two of us." 

Qiao Xiaozhen: "I want to eat Japanese food."

"Okay, do you have any recommendations? If not, I'll ask someone to order it directly."

"The more expensive, the better."

Qiao Yihua slowly approached her and squeezed her into the crack of the door, but there was no ambiguity at all, on the contrary, he was a bit gentlemanly. "Maybe T will have to go out in a while, can you still wait for me here?"

Qiao Xiaozhen knew that he would be very busy. His boss, who had more than 20 people, was not in the company half of the time every month, discussing business, traveling abroad, and of course going out to spend money.

Qiao Yihua would only be busier, and his assistant had to calculate every hour of his time. Most of the value of human beings comes from work. He didn't understand it before because he was busy all day, but since he started working, he understood that everyone has their own difficulties.

She put on the light green skirt, which was very matching and energetic in the city where birds were singing and flowers were blooming all the time in spring. Shenzhen is very casual, and you don't need high heels to match a dress. She changed into a pair of new flat sandals.

When getting off the elevator, Qiao Yihua reached out and held her hand. Except that the man was too "mature", they were actually quite compatible.

But no matter how "mature" he was, it could be offset in front of a luxury car.

The food was not as bad as expected, but it was not delicious either, mainly because

you had to squat. "Don't pretend in front of me."

After he said that, Xiaozhen relaxed.

"Would you like some?"

Qiao Xiaozhen shook her head: "No, I'll die if I drink more. You men always like to force others to drink. You didn't stop me yesterday, and I had a headache for a long time in the middle of the night."

Qiao Yihua said: "I was forced to drink."

"So you are gloating."

He put a piece of rose beef tongue on her plate and chuckled: "If you don't succeed, you will die."

Xiaozhen took a bite and frowned: "It's so disgusting." He

put it in the air and didn't know where to put it. Qiao Yihua leaned over, and she instinctively fed him.

Well, I can't tell what it feels like, it's too contrived.

Because of the Japanese decoration, the seats are relatively closed and the doors can be pushed and pulled.

Qiao Yihua asked her to come over and sit next to him, but Xiaozhen pretended not to hear and refused to move.

He sat directly over, and as soon as he sat down, he lowered his head and kissed her without any preparation.

The intertwined smells from the nose and mouth really made her dizzy. Maybe it was because she hadn't kissed anyone for too long, and she almost couldn't breathe because of him. It

wasn't too much in public. He let go of her hand and teased her, saying, "You really have no taste."

It was indeed the most expensive.

But the atmosphere was awkward and ambiguous, and they had nothing to say. When they were leaving, he wanted to put shoes on her, which scared Xiaozhen so much that she quickly put on her shoes and went downstairs to wait.

There was a drugstore not far from the door. She didn't need to intuit what was going to happen that night. She bought condoms and contraceptives for double protection.

When she was going back, he was on the phone. The voice was quite loud outside, and she could hear it clearly.

Qiao Xiaozhen didn't want to listen, but it was still clearly transmitted to her ears. Her shoes trampled a leaf back and forth, and she lowered her head and waited for him to come out at the door.

Qiao Yihua came over, and such a bright and beautiful skirt couldn't make her face look sunny.

She didn't say a word all the way.

She wasn't drunk but she wanted to pass out. Why would she care now? Even though I have learned to control my emotions and not be as willful as before, I still can't let go of that familiar feeling of suffocation.

When I got home, I pulled the quilt to cover my head, but I didn't cry, I just felt suffocated.

Hearing the sound of the door being pushed open, and the lights were not on in the room, he came up and threw the quilt aside, put his arms around her waist and pressed on her.

I could feel that the woman under him was a little dodging, and she refused to respond when he kissed her, and pushed her shoulders slightly with his palms, refusing to touch her.

He had been pretending too much these past two days and really thought he had become a gentleman and had given up on love. He acted very quickly, and he came up and tore off her skirt and safety pants, and leaned over to kiss her there.

I won't pretend anymore, I'll show my cards, and if she dares to resist, I'll hold her down with my arms and legs.

I knew I had to do this when I went home with him the day before yesterday, but I'm still a little uncomfortable. They haven't touched each other for a long time, and there's some instinctive resistance.

Xiaozhen originally wanted to hold back and not make a sound, but then she thought, why bother? His breath was getting heavier, and when he was about to go in, the desk lamp on the table was suddenly turned on.

The man under him took the opportunity to say, "You... go... wear... go wear a condom."

He asked blankly, "What?"

"Wear a condom, wear a condom." Xiaozhen repeated.

He laughed. Did they have this thing before?

She was still explaining, "I bought it. I have it in my bag."

Qiao Yihua took off her shirt and didn't listen to her request. He held her all the way down without moving. He pressed his upper body against her head and asked, "What to wear?"

Her body was squeezed so hard that she couldn't breathe. She turned red in a few seconds and her hands touched his face unconsciously.

Not sure if they hadn't done it for too long and were not used to it. I always felt that she was slow to respond and a little uncooperative.

But it didn't stop them from tossing and turning all night. After a long time, they became familiar with each other. After getting familiar with each other, she would shout and scream and rub against his arms to cooperate. It was really exhausting all night.

It's not about how many times they did it. He was like the last time of the end of the world. He didn't plan to sleep all night. He woke me up when I was about to fall asleep.

Over and over again all night.

Kissing, hugging, entangled. A few years later, she tried to enjoy the life of men and women that adults did not reject. To be honest, it was okay. However, apart from physical actions, they did not talk much.

She did not want to talk, and he did even less.

When she woke up in the morning, the person next to her was still asleep. Qiao Xiaozhen took a shower and saw that she had some dark circles under her eyes in the mirror. Her collarbone and chest were all covered with kisses. She had been using concealer for a long time. It was always like this, and she had gotten used to it. She

poured a glass of water and took two pills.

Contraceptive pills.

These days, you can't rely on men, you can only rely on yourself.

Xiaozhen was not sure if he had seen it. When she washed up and was ready to go out to work, she ran into Qiao Yihua who had just gotten up.

Xiaozhen: "I'm going to work. I've already taken a day off."

She returned to her previous calmness and alienation. When she walked to the door, Qiao Yihua asked: "What is this?"

Xiaozhen raised her eyebrows and said casually: "One-night stand."

I didn't expect that one day they would be able to reverse.

He smiled and said: "Wait for me, three minutes."

Qiao Xiaozhen stayed at the door for two minutes and left alone. While waiting for the elevator, he closed the door and followed.

In such a short time, he was able to simply comb his hair and wear formal clothes.

When they entered the elevator together, he said, "I have to go back to Shanghai today."

"Oh."

"Do you want to have breakfast first?"

"No."

When they walked to the basement garage, he opened the door for her like a gentleman. He drove the car himself today, and the driver was not seen.

He said, "The clothes are a little small, you can buy new ones or have them altered."

Xiaozhen leaned back in her chair, feeling a little tired, and didn't want to talk much.

"Hmm?"

Xiaozhen: "My weight hasn't changed much."

Qiao Yihua drove very seriously. "My chest is much tighter." He asked, "Don't you feel it yourself?"

She felt it. The collar of her skirt was not low yesterday, and her chest was bulging when it was supported. But she didn't want to discuss this issue.

Physiologically, breasts will increase during pregnancy, and they will swell for a while after giving birth, and gradually return to their previous state. However, compared with before, they are still much taller. She usually chooses loose work clothes or skirts and short-sleeved shirts, giving up the suspender clothes she liked in college. No one will deliberately observe her, so she doesn't feel anything.

He rubbed her endlessly last night, and her breasts were red when she woke up in the morning. She was so angry that she wanted to curse, and now she discussed this topic.

Qiao Xiaozhen snorted again and ignored him. The community is not far from the company, so she asked Qiao Yihua to stop at an intersection in advance.

First, it was still early to have breakfast, and second, she didn't want her colleagues in the company to see gossip. She didn't know if Wang Qi would spread gossip if she went with him that night. It was even more terrible to give a luxury car to someone.

Qiao Yihua got out of the car with her.

Walking to the sidewalk, the two of them were facing each other, and both wanted to hear what they said when they were about to end their relationship.

"I hope I can see you often."

"What do you do when you see me? Do you often have one-night stands?"

Qiao Yihua: "I know you heard it. Xiaoxi is more than three years old. She needs maternal love and the care of a female role. She needs someone to care for her as she grows up. I can't touch her. For her, I can do anything and pay any price! You are really not suitable. One of the purposes this time is indeed so. I want you to go back, even if I can give her a little bit of what she needs."

He said his purpose without hiding anything.

After telling everything, Xiaozhen didn't know what to say. The content of the phone call yesterday was nothing more than Professor Zhou asking him about his situation. At the beginning of the year, he introduced his female student to Qiao Yihua, who had been single for a long time, as Xiaoxi's stepmother. He was like an examiner, not agreeing or objecting, just looking at Xiaoxi's reaction.

If it wasn't for money, who could stand his insult?

During the call, Professor Zhou asked him indirectly what he thought of Yang Jing, his female student. Qiao Yihua was more thoughtful than before. She analyzed the pros and cons and finally concluded, "I have no opinion on Miss Yang. Xiaoxi doesn't like her."

These were of course excuses. Professor Zhou asked, "What about Miss Xiaozhen? You should have found her."

Professor Zhou knew him very well, and could even guess and see through him easily.

The only person who could make him fall into contradiction and daze again was Qiao Xiaozhen.

Qiao Yihua did not reveal too much, only saying, "Xiaozhen has changed a lot. It is hard to conclude whether she is qualified or not. She doesn't like children."

For the sake of the child, he asked his future wife to be emotionless and must be good to his daughter. The biological mother could also be used to test whether she met the requirements. She had always told him that she was not suitable to be a mother.

She had always said so. "So?" she asked.

"So?" Qiao Yihua found it difficult to endure her indifference all the time. "Are you so cruel? I don't want you to miss Xiaoxi, but what about me? Have you ever thought about me? Why are you so heartless?"

He could actually say such heartless words like her. The sun rose from the west.

People were coming and going at work. His voice was not loud, but it was extremely questioning.

What about me? Is the next sentence going to be that I have raised you for so many years in vain, how can you be so casual and cut off the relationship, how can you be so cruel.

Qiao Yihua realized that he had lost his composure a little, and asked her in a gentle tone: "Do you still want to be with me...?"

"No, I don't want to." She didn't even think about it.

"I don't want to disrupt your current life, Xiaozhen, we can see each other once every two or three months instead of once every half a month."

He even sounded a little humble, but Xiaozhen still refused without hesitation, "No, no."

She turned around and walked into the crowd of people going to work.

There was a horn from the car behind, Qiao Yihua nodded and apologized, then drove away quickly, and disappeared in the crowd as well.