Volume 2 2010 Chapter 362: Ye Shuhua's Nightmare (Part 4)
Finally, she managed to control herself.
"actually."
Shu Hua let out a long breath, as if releasing his stress.
"I've always liked Yuqi."
The girl hugged her legs, pressed her face against them, and curled up into a ball.
"She is very different from me! I have never met anyone like her, she is really amazing! She learns everything very quickly, has a generous personality, is very confident , and can do anything well."
Perhaps because of the posture, Shu Hua's voice became very low, as if it came from a distant place, ethereal and disembodied.
“Although people always say she’s just a bluff, that’s just a joke, I really think she’s awesome!
But.
I am not her!
I don’t envy her either!
It only takes Yuqi a few hours to learn a dance, but it takes me at least a day!
I sing out of tune, but she doesn't. The teacher said that there might be something wrong with my sense of pitch and I need to spend time training.
As for my body shape, I do try to control it, but the results are still not as obvious as hers!
Even if she is better than me in everything, I am not as good as her in anything!
I still love myself more!
I am Ye Shuhua.
I am from Taoyuan, Taiwan. I studied acting at Huagang Arts School.
I’m not good at singing, dancing, or body management, but I’m trying!
Just because you didn’t see it doesn’t mean I didn’t try hard!”
After finishing this inner monologue, the girl looked up at Yi Haoyan stubbornly.
In her eyes, that special soul was dancing vividly, attracting men's attention just like when she was selected .
But.
Today is not what it was a few years ago.
"That means you haven't worked hard enough, far from enough! It's like you haven't worked hard at all!"
Yi Haoyan's ruthless reaction was like ice water in the cold winter, extinguishing the flames in the girl's eyes.
“I know you have tried hard, but that is what you think you have tried.
That level is far from passing!
I saw you responding to netizens online.
fine!
I hope that (G)I-DLE's idols all have their own personalities.
It’s good to have a good temper!”
The man frowned and looked at the dazed girl, but his expression remained calm.
“But personality is useless if it’s just based on words, that’s a sign of incompetence!
Having personality requires strength and talent, not words!
You are an idol, not a troll!
So what if you win the online argument? Can it make your career more successful?
You are Ye Shuhua for sure!
But is this remarkable?
Is the current Ye Shuhua the one you are most satisfied with?
Is this the extent of Ye Shuhua? You came all the way from Taoyuan to Seoul, leaving your hometown for so many years just to become like this?
A cute little beluga whale?
"Ha~"
The man's cruel words were like ruthless iron rods, hitting the girl's self-esteem hard again and again.
"All successful idols are amazing! But they have all been scolded, whether it's justified or not!
They have all been vilified, whether it was their fault or not.
But they are not like you who are unconvinced and say, "I like myself just the way I am! I have done well! I am just like this!"
Who are you trying to fool?
How did Girls' Generation do it during the Black Sea?
How did Victoria Song do as SM’s first foreign captain?
What did Red Velvet do when they were criticized after their debut?
What did Kim Ye-rin, who joined later, do when she was boycotted?
And what did your captain Jeon So-yeon do when she was called ugly on a talent show? "
The man questioned the girl with a series of questions.
"While they were silent, they took action to improve themselves, and responded to those who slandered and abused them with stronger strength, better performance, and a more outstanding self. This is personality, and this is sticking to your true self.
Instead of saying a bunch of useless words to me like you are doing now."
The girl looked at the man with helplessness and despair in her eyes.
“I really tried my best!”
"No! You didn't!"
"I do! This is really all I can do for now!"
"No! You were already very good when you debuted, but now we are still far from that time."
"I am no longer the person I was back then!"
"Yuqi can do it, and so can you."
"I'm not Song Yuqi! I'm Ye Shuhua! I can't be as good as her!!"
The girl's emotions finally got out of control. She shouted at the man at the top of her lungs, her voice full of hysteria.
And helpless.
The afternoon sunlight slanted into the room from the window , dividing the room into two parts: light and dark.
The man was standing right on the dividing line between light and shadow, with half of him in sunlight and half in shadow. The difference between light and dark was so obscure that it was difficult to see his expression.
After Shu Hua finished yelling, he closed his eyes in pain, held his head with both hands, and shook his head uncontrollably.
He kept muttering to himself.
"I really can't do it~ Why are you forcing me~"
Yi Haoyan looked out the window, ignoring her collapse and remained motionless.
"You can do it."
After a long while, the man said calmly.
"No, I can't."
The girl raised her head, her eyes full of struggle and despair.
"Let me go...I want to go back to Taiwan..."
Hear this.
Yi Haoyan paused, then slowly turned around to face the girl, and his whole body disappeared into the shadows.
He narrowed his eyes and stared at Ye Shuhua, his eyes flashing with danger.
"What did you say?"
"I want to go back to Taiwan... I can't do it... Let me go..."
"You...say it again?"
"I quit...I want to leave the group...and go home..."
The girl, who was having a breakdown, seemed unaware of the change in the man and kept mumbling to herself.
"What's the excuse? What about the others? Don't you want to susu anymore?"
Yi Haoyan approached her step by step, like a predator approaching its prey.
"I can't do well... I'm a burden here... Everyone will be better off without me... susu... susu Miane~"
The girl seemed a little incoherent, her words were full of sadness and pain, and even had a hint of crying.
Yi Haoyan sat down beside the bed.
This was the closest he had been to Ye Shuhua since he entered the door.
The girl finally sensed something was wrong.
"You...what are you...what are you doing...Ah!!!"
Ye Shuhua's choice to give up brought back the most painful memories in his heart.
This painful experience changed his cognition and behavior, almost turning him into a different person.
The pain that he recalled again after many years also aroused the man's rage.
Yi Haoyan suddenly grabbed the girl's hand and pulled her over.
Of course, a girl cannot resist the strength of an adult man.
Ye Shuhua was picked up like a little chicken, and she lost her balance and fell on Yi Haoyan's legs.
Because her arms were pulled forward, the girl's body was forced to stretch out and lie prone in front of the man. This posture made her butt unconsciously stick out.
Yi Haoyan raised his hand and slapped the part that looked even more plump and firm because of the weight gain!
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