Chapter 124: Love is Hard to Forget (4)
Listening to Yin Yin's words, Gui Sha was surprised at first, but then he reacted quickly and thought deeply about her words; if he hadn't heard it from Yin Yin's mouth with his own ears, Gui Sha would never have thought that the Yin Yin he knew would be so different from what he knew. However, since it came from Yin Yin's own mouth, it must be the real her; should Gui Sha feel honored to have the opportunity to hear these most real truths from Yin Yin's mouth in person?
However, Guisha was still very confused. After listening to Yinyin's statement , Yinyin seemed to be able to clearly distinguish the truth of certain things, such as him and the person in Yinyin's heart. Yinyin was very sure what secrets Yinyin had. And what kind of relationship did he have with Yinyin, and what about Zhao Ziheng? What puzzled Guisha the most was Yinyin's words "cannot be explained by common sense", which seemed to be the key to all this. But Guisha really couldn't analyze this sentence.
"So he's not with you?" Guisha suddenly spoke.
Yin Yin did not answer immediately. After a moment, she slowly said: "At first I thought he had some unspeakable secrets, and I also considered whether I was too willful."
Guisha felt that this was not being willful. Everyone hopes that the most important person can be with them when they need him or her the most. Moreover, too many things have happened to Yinyin, and she needs someone to be with her at all times. From this point of view, Yinyin has made a great concession.
Yin Yin's voice continued: "He came to see me twice, probably twice, so I believe he really has something to hide. Yes, someone like me has so many things that are beyond my control, let alone him? But I was wrong after all. People change, and he is no exception. No matter how much we loved each other at the beginning, we would still change because of distance and time. Even if I went to find him, he would still avoid me. I thought he had his own difficulties, but in the end he would marry another woman. Maybe I really killed that person."
Guisha couldn't believe it. At first, it was just a guess, but with every word and sentence of Yinyin, his guess was confirmed, as if to say that the person who looked exactly like him was Zhao Ziheng? Is it possible? No, or maybe he was wrong from the beginning. He didn't look the same as that person, but just looked like him in a certain feature. Regardless of this, Yinyin's words made Guisha feel desperate, and finally understood what Yinyin was facing. After giving everything, including trust, what she got in the end was just betrayal. How could Yinyin, who had experienced countless pains, bear it? Since hope was shattered, how could her heart not die? That's why she closed her heart subconsciously, and subconsciously couldn't forget . Frankly speaking, Guisha still didn't dare to believe it. What kind of relationship was it that he couldn't give up even if it became like this?
"Are you still in love with him?"
Putting everything aside, Guisha knew that even if Yinyin answered, it might not be her real intention. Sure enough, Yinyin shook her head with a blank look on her face. This made Guisha wonder if Yinyin understood what he was asking, or if she knew what she was saying. Did she not love him? From Yinyin's words and subconscious reaction, anyone could tell that she still had feelings for him. Did she love him? Yinyin's attitude remained indifferent. Even Guisha could only think that it was because Yinyin had blocked her heart.
“Look at me!”
Guisha said lightly, even he didn't know why he said that, and Yinyin slowly turned her head when she heard the voice, and Guisha's figure was reflected in her clear eyes, "Do you hate him?" Guisha asked.
Yinyin shook her head. Just as she had said to Han Ji, hatred no longer had any meaning to her. But why? Thinking of Han Ji and what she had said at that time, Yinyin subconsciously tilted her head. This reaction was enough to overturn her own answer.
"Really not hating?"
Guisha, who noticed Yinyin's reaction, asked again, and this time Yinyin looked at him, although there was no emotion in her indifferent eyes; Guisha's guess was not wrong, it was just that some subtle expressions were a kind of transformation for Yinyin now. Even if she didn't notice it herself, it was a sign, indicating that Yinyin could return to normal at any time.
"So do you hate me?"
This time Yin Yin was no longer indifferent. She looked at Gui Sha with a hint of doubt in her eyes, as if these were two completely unrelated questions. Of course, Yin Yin did not think about why Gui Sha asked this, but shook her head again.
Yinyin's answer made Guisha fully realize that Yinyin can actually distinguish between hatred and resentment. Whether it is love or hatred, it just depends on who and what it is directed at. Is Yinyin's heart really dead? The answer is of course no.
Guisha took a deep breath, as if he had made some decision. He stretched out his hands, held Yinyin's hands, and looked at her without saying a word, but very seriously. Yinyin looked at Guisha woodenly, then looked at Guisha's hands holding hers. She had some doubts but didn't say anything. Guisha's hands were very warm, and the warmth that spread from his hands to her body gradually penetrated into her heart. Finally, she turned her gaze to Guisha, with inquiry in her eyes, but also as indifferent as ever.
