Chapter 129: Cracks (6)
I don't know how long it took, but when Yin Yin spoke, her voice became hoarse and trembling: "I... want to save him."
Hearing this, Shan Zhen was stunned. He didn't understand what Yin Yin meant. Although Yin Yin didn't cry, Shan Zhen saw the immense pain in her eyes.
"I want to save him..." Yin Yin repeated. She looked at Shan Zhen, her eyes sparkling but she refused to let them flow out. Before Shan Zhen could react, she continued: "He can't die. He hasn't told me many things yet. He can't just leave me alone like that. I want to hear his explanation . I want to hear him tell me in person. But... I'm afraid to go see him like this. I'm so afraid that he will leave me forever, so... so I have to save him. I have to find a way to save him before I can see him... Do you understand? I want to save him..."
At the end of the conversation, Yinyin's voice was almost out of tune, as if she was trying hard to suppress something, but she refused to let the tears flow out. Her efforts to stay strong made Shan Zhen feel heartbroken and heartbroken more than ever. However, Shan Zhen didn't understand what Yinyin meant. It sounded like Zhao Ziheng would die? Was that so? And from what Yinyin said, she was here just for Zhao Ziheng? To find the so-called way to save him?
In short, there was a reason why Yinyin didn't go to see Zhao Ziheng, and this reason was related to his life and death. Thinking of life and death, two identical premonitions flashed through Shan Zhen's mind; Shan Zhen understood that although he was not very clear, Yinyin's own situation was not optimistic. To be precise, she was the one who was worrying; as for Zhao Ziheng, after hearing Yinyin's words, Shan Zhen inexplicably remembered that when Zhao Ziheng visited Yinyin shortly after she woke up from a long sleep, he suddenly coughed up blood when he left. After that, he heard that Zhao Ziheng had been taking medicine for a long time for unknown reasons without interruption. Could it be related to this incident? At first glance, Yinyin and Zhao Ziheng's situations may be surprisingly similar.
"Tell me, what should I do? I want to see him, I want to see him right away, but I also want to save him. I don't want to endure the pain of losing him again. I don't want to isolate myself anymore. If I lose him again this time, I won't be able to survive. I will definitely not be able to survive..."
Yinyin's hoarse voice seemed to be struggling, looking for a way to get out of it. Her hands unconsciously grasped Shan Zhen's clothes tightly. Through those delicate hands, Shan Zhen could clearly feel her trembling. Her eyes were filled with unbearable grief, but she was still forcing herself to endure it. She seemed to be defeated at any time, but she still stood there. With such a heartbreaking call, how could Shan Zhen not feel Yinyin's mood? When had Yinyin ever had such an expression? Not even for Zhou Cheng, it turned out that Yinyin loved him so deeply...
Shan Zhen felt that the last fragment of his heart that supported him was being torn apart. His scarred heart had been cracked since he fell in love with her, and it had never healed since then . Really, it was completely shattered at this moment. Shan Zhen had always loved Yin Yin with his cracked heart, but how could a cracked heart become complete? The result was inevitable, right? No matter who it was, that person would never be himself.
“Cry—”
Not knowing what to say, Shan Zhen slowly raised his hands and carefully held Yin Yin in his arms. Yin Yin's tears burst out at this moment and she cried wildly in Shan Zhen's arms, but she didn't dare to cry loudly. She didn't want more people to know her fragility. She thought she had become strong, but she didn't expect that she was so vulnerable in the arms of the man in front of her.
To be honest, Yinyin never thought that she understood Shan Zhen, but at this moment, she felt a peace of mind she had never felt before in his arms. Why? Yinyin didn't know, and she didn't have the energy to think about these things. Her heart was occupied by great pain. Now, apart from facing Zhao Ziheng's affairs , how could she have more energy to think about other things? Maybe this is cruel to some people, but Yinyin really doesn't have the energy to care. Maybe this is because people are selfish, and Yinyin doesn't think she will be an exception.
If... just if! If Yinyin was willing to explore a little bit in her heart, she would find that whenever she was willing to look back, Dan Zhen's cracked heart would not become fragmented, but she didn't; from this point of view, Yinyin might be cruel, but she couldn't be blamed, because Dan Zhen hid his feelings too well, and with the guilt towards Yinyin, everything he did became excusable, so it would not be so easy to be discovered by others, especially by Yinyin.
Shan Zhen would not know that Feng Jingyi, hiding in a dark corner not far away, had already burst into tears, because the strict training since childhood allowed her to hear their conversation even if she was hiding in a dark corner; Feng Jingyi did not know why, perhaps she had known from the beginning that Shan Zhen would never get a response from the person he loved, at least now it seems that she was not wrong, she felt that she could understand Shan Zhen's feelings very well, just like herself; Feng Jingyi recalled that she might have fallen in love with Shan Zhen at first sight, because there was always an lingering pain deep in his eyes, and she was deeply attracted to that pain, and the desire to heal that pain arose in her heart from then on.
