Chapter 146: Hate Because of Love (2)
"Moreover, Huan Ling doesn't seem to be so ruthless. At least he lets Yi'er and I meet once every three months." When saying this, there was an unfathomable emotion in Han Ji's eyes. In simple terms, it seemed that she did not hate Huan Ling?
Zhou Yan looked at Han Ji without saying anything. It was unclear whether he had nothing to say or he didn't know where to start. He even didn't respond to Han Ji's comments about Huan Ling.
"What about you? I know she brought you here, but why are you with her?" Han Ji subtly turned the topic to Zhou Yan.
Zhou Yan was obviously hesitant about this question, but after a moment he answered it. He said: "Yin Yin is in her hands."
There is no need to say more about the following words. Although I knew that Zhou Yan I still felt a little bitter in my heart. Resisting the loss and bitterness in my heart, Han Ji said slowly: "Is that so? Is she okay?"
It’s hard to say whether it’s okay or not, Zhou Yan couldn’t answer. After all, he was more or less responsible for Yin Yin being brought here, so he couldn’t answer.
Perhaps seeing that Zhou Yan was unwilling to answer, Han Ji did not mind and continued: "She is not in good health. I hope she doesn't suffer any pain."
Zhou Yan looked at Han Ji, with some inexplicable emotions in his eyes. He really wanted to know why Han Ji could be so generous at this time? Was it because she didn't care? Or was she really so generous?
Just as Zhou Yan was thinking about how to start, Han Ji's voice sounded first, and she said: "Could it be that you came here because..."
Han Ji is not a fool. She knows very well what Yin Yin means to Zhou Yan. But under such circumstances, Zhou Yan could actually tolerate Huan Ling bringing Yin Yin here. There must be a reason. She was reluctant to believe this reason, but she couldn't think of any other reason. She looked at Zhou Yan with wide eyes, as if she wanted to get an answer from him.
Under Han Ji's gaze, Zhou Yan finally spoke, but he did not answer her question, but answered something irrelevant: "Is that why you hate me?"
Han Ji was stunned and confused by Zhou Yan's sudden words.
"Yes, you should hate me. I've always been so cruel to you. You didn't even know about Yi'er's existence until today. You have reason to hate me. I owe you more than just love. I'm afraid that even if I give you my life in exchange, it wouldn't be a pity, right?" Zhou Yan said calmly, as if he didn't care at all about the seriousness of his words.
When you hurt someone completely, you will find out how much you owe her, but when you find out, you will know that you can't repay her. As for Han Ji, Zhou Yan has long found that he is more than just guilty. How can he make up for what he owes her with a "sorry"? He admitted that he was very disgusted with this marriage at the beginning, but he never blamed Han Ji, because he knew better than anyone that Han Ji was forced and had no right to choose , so he never blamed her from the beginning, and subconsciously wanted to treat her better, at least not to make her cry, and at the same time gave her freedom; Zhou Yan knew from the beginning that he would not fall in love with anyone other than Yin Yin, and this feeling has not changed until now. He thought it would always be like this, but now he is shaken. It is better to say that he doesn't know what to do than to be shaken. This is the first time he feels lost.
Han Ji didn't know what Zhou Yan was thinking, let alone what he wanted to do. To be honest, she didn't know Zhou Yan very well, but she felt vaguely uneasy from his words. Han Ji had a very bad premonition. She opened her mouth to say something, but found that she couldn't speak.
"Like I said before, you are a woman, and I... am a bad man. I did everything to get what I wanted, but when I came to my senses, I realized that I had deeply hurt her and the people around me. I don't know how to make up for it, but as long as I can do it, I will still do everything. But, I don't know if it's too late?"
As soon as he finished speaking, Zhou Yan reached out and touched Han Ji's face. Han Ji was as beautiful as before, but no longer as young as before. The years had left traces of vicissitudes on her face. It was not aging, but maturity, time and experience. Han Ji had experienced everything that others could not imagine, and now she was even more mature, and that maturity also included the love of a mother.
Zhou Yan's lips curled up in a self-deprecating arc, and he found out that time passed so quickly. In the blink of an eye, he was no longer a young man, but a man with a wife and children. But what did he do? He completely ignored or even abandoned his wife and children in order to pursue his own happiness. Not only that, but in the process of pursuing it, he constantly hurt the most important person in his heart. What kind of person is he? A selfish and arrogant person? Or an inhuman thug? Whether it was the person in his heart or her, he had never given them happiness, but only pain. When he tortured each other to the point of unbearable pain, he still got nothing. What on earth had brought him to this point today?
If time could flow back, would he not do the same irreversible thing again? Zhou Yan was not sure, and even thought that he might still do the same thing at that time, even if it hurt, even if the final outcome was a lose-lose situation... He would not hesitate, but the guilt could not be separated, because the facts were always unchangeable.
