Chapter 146: Hate Because of Love (5)
"What about you?" Zhou Yan found that he didn't want to listen to Han Ji talking only for others anymore. What he cared about was Han Ji's mood.
Han Ji was unprepared for this question and was a little stunned. She murmured: "Me?"
"You knew what kind of person I am from the beginning, why did you fall in love with me? What makes me worthy of your love?" Zhou Yan couldn't tell whether it was sarcasm or the truth. He just wanted to know what Han Ji was thinking. This woman who had always been very steady and smart in his impression couldn't possibly not know the truth. So why did he fall in love with her?
"...Do you need a reason to fall in love with someone?" Han Ji smiled bitterly. If she knew, she might not have fallen in love.
Hearing this, Zhou Yan was stunned. It was undeniable that Han Ji was right. He also thought so. If he needed a reason, would he not love Yin Yin so much? Because he still couldn't figure out why he was so obsessed with Yin Yin, even wanting to get her at all costs.
"Is it worth it? For someone like me?" Zhou Yan asked.
Zhou Yan believed that he fell in love with Yin Yin for no reason, because Yin Yin was worth it, but what about him? He knew that he had no place worthy of anyone's stay, and he never thought that he had any place worthy of anyone's cherishment, but why did Han Ji do that?
In this regard, Han Ji gave an answer that Zhou Yan could never have expected. She said: "Is there anything worth it if you fall in love?"
Just with this sentence, Zhou Yan felt as if something in his heart collapsed. The next moment, he had embraced Han Ji in his arms. He didn't know why he did this. It was completely subconscious. But when he came to his senses, he still didn't want to let go. The person in his arms had such a slender body, as if he would crush her with a little force. He seemed not to have noticed before that the person in his arms was so frail.
"Hate me, as long as you think it will make you feel better, then hate me, it doesn't matter how much, I will accept it one by one, if it still can't relieve your unhappiness, I can also give you my life, just as a repayment to you, I have nothing else to give you, but I still have my life, you just need to remember that you can take my life at any time, any time." Zhou Yan said word by word as if atonement , now he doesn't care about anything, what's the use of life? Just as compensation, he doesn't want to owe too much, even if he is cold and strong, he will feel tired after so many things, but at least he hopes to compensate the person who owes the most, and that person is Han Ji.
After hearing Zhou Yan's words, Han Ji didn't know whether she should feel happy or sad. She smiled bitterly in Zhou Yan's arms: "Any time? What should she do? Isn't she waiting for you to save her now?"
Zhou Yan was speechless at this. Yes, he still wanted to save Yin Yin, but Han Ji...
Because she was in his arms, Zhou Yan couldn't see Han Ji's expression. Her eyes were full of sadness and pain, and there was a deathly look, as if she was despairing about something.
"I will rescue her , and then... I will also compensate you. Even though I know that many things cannot be compensated, I will definitely compensate you." Zhou Yan's tone revealed determination.
This did not seem to be Han Ji's illusion. Even though she was extremely sad now, she could still feel the determination in Zhou Yan's tone. She realized that the fear she had felt before had come back again. After going around in circles, she finally returned to the topic, from sadness to fear, fear still occupied her heart. She wanted to get up from Zhou Yan's arms, but found that she was nostalgic for the smell of his arms. She wanted to ask him, but found that she couldn't say a word. Could she only watch?
Just as Han Ji was struggling to decide whether to speak, Zhou Yan's voice sounded again: "When all this is over, I won't let you suffer anymore."
Han Ji couldn't understand Zhou Yan's words for a moment. She became more and more certain that something was wrong when she met , but she couldn't tell what was wrong.
But Zhou Yan already had . Yes, he would not let Han Ji suffer again, especially when he knew that Han Ji had given birth to a child for him, he was even more certain... Some things cannot be avoided, so he can only face them and make a decision. Be it Yin Yin or Han Ji, these two women in his life, he can no longer let go or be relieved. He owes them too much, maybe it's because of what happened that made him understand thoroughly that some things cannot be forced, otherwise he will always be the one who gets hurt the most. Zhou Yan felt that he had always been strong, especially when facing Yin Yin. He thought he would be able to win back her heart one day, but found that her heart was getting farther and farther away. As for Han Ji, Zhou Yan did not deny that he had never paid attention to her, otherwise would he have stayed for her?
Love or hate, you have to face it in the end. Hate for one person is hate, and the same is true for two people. So he doesn't care how much it is, and he can ignore other people. Only the two women who have stayed in his life make him unable to let go; he once thought that time can erase everything and change everything, but in the end he found that all these are just lies. The heart of the person he loves never stays because of him, and the person who loves him is hurt by his unintentional slander. How could he want such an ending? He can be cold-blooded to anyone, but only these two people make him full of holes, and can defeat all his reason and strength in an instant.
