Volume 2 2010 Chapter 379: Xu Suzhen's New Path (Part 1)
"I have confirmed with Professor Jin that it is endogenous depression."
The woman's voice was soft and filled with a sense of loneliness.
"I may not be able to go on stage..."
"you……"
Although this possibility had been anticipated, it was still hard to accept when the reality really came.
The man's voice was trembling. He wanted to say something but didn't know where to start. He wanted to do something but found that he could do nothing.
He stretched out his hand, wanting to touch the girl's long hair, trying to comfort her, but found himself so powerless and weak at this moment.
This is an unspeakable irony for him now.
As one of the most outstanding figures of the young generation of chaebols, Yi Haoyan suddenly found that he was powerless to do anything about it...
This feeling is terrible.
The woman opposite was not wearing any makeup, her face was bare, and she was lying casually on the sofa, with her two long, beautiful legs crossed in a boyish manner, just like she usually was.
Seo Soo-jin used to be like this in private.
Quietly.
Don’t like wearing makeup.
Always wear comfortable, loose-fitting clothing.
Their behavior and actions are careless, some even like boys.
But her innate unique femininity could not be concealed no matter what. It filled every corner where she appeared, firmly attracting Yi Haoyan's attention and making him indulge in it several times.
But now.
Still, something has changed.
Her long hair, which was always tied up, was now scattered on her body in a messy manner.
The eyes that never cried were now red and swollen.
Even with his eyes closed, he could feel the woman's inner weakness and confusion at this moment.
She finally couldn't hold on any longer.
Seo Soo-jin now has a kind of fragility that has never been seen before.
It’s beautiful, but so beautiful that it makes people feel heartbroken.
At this moment, she was like a porcelain vase already covered with cracks. It seemed that with just a little more pressure, it would collapse and shatter into pieces scattered all over the ground.
Yi Haoyan had collapsed before, so he understood how Suzhen felt.
The feeling of piecing oneself back together piece by piece was so difficult and painful, so he didn't want Soo-jin to go through that process again.
"Don't worry, it's okay, I can handle it."
The man said things he didn't even believe, and he only wanted to protect the woman from getting hurt.
"But, I can't seem to achieve the dream we promised each other... What a pity..."
The woman opened her eyes and looked at the man in front of her who had discovered and nurtured her and with whom she was inexplicably entangled. Suddenly, she couldn't stop her tears from flowing.
Both for myself and for him.
" It's okay! There's still a chance! As long as you recover, those won't be a problem! Trust me, Suizhen, I've been through this! It'll be fine, you'll get better, I promise!"
The man raised his voice and looked a little excited.
He rarely does this.
Since his recovery, Yi Haoyan's emotions have rarely been so out of control.
It only appears occasionally in front of a very small number of people.
Among them, Seo Soo-jin is the most special one.
The woman looked at the man, felt his panic, and inexplicably recalled the past.
At that time, she was only 17 years old and was still a candidate member of an unknown group. She was not pretty, her dancing skills were not as good as they are now, and she was not a popular member.
Every time she performed on the street with her sisters, wearing cheap uniforms and pleated skirts, she was always in the corners and never attracted attention.
Until that day.
This man showed up.
He was wearing an expensive suit and was surrounded by a few followers who were also dressed in suits. He looked like an elite, but he just watched me dance like any other passerby, and he came here for several days in a row.
And he was really strange, he didn't seem to care what others thought, sometimes when he got tired of standing, he would just sit on the ground without caring about whether that expensive suit would be ruined...
The sisters who couldn't stand it asked her to deliver a stool to this unusual-looking man, and she also learned his name.
Yi Haoyan.
Then, the trajectory of my life changed.
He brought me to Cube and I became a non-public trainee, where I had the opportunity to learn dancing from various well-known dance teachers in the industry.
Later I found out that it was all arranged by Yi Haoyan.
He is the director of Cube.
Although he is a director, he seems to have a lot of other things to do. He is often not seen in the company and does not seem to take care of anything.
He would often come when I was practicing dancing.
"Susu, you are a natural lead dancer. There are no dancers like you in Korea."
When he said this, his eyes sparkled like bright stars.
He is right.
Whether it is understanding myself or planning for (G)I-DLE.
In 2018, she finally debuted with her group members, breaking the record of a girl group taking first place! Her career has also been on the rise since then.
And then.
A scandal broke out about him, but the impact was quickly calmed down.
But from that time on, the relationship between him and me became...very complicated and strange...
Recalling what happened during that period, the woman herself found it hard to understand how the relationship between the two of them had become like that, and she couldn't figure out the reason.
Perhaps, some things in the world are really so crazy and unreasonable...
Since then, I have been entangled with him until now.
A lot of things happened in the meantime and various situations emerged.
Although there are still some important things that have not been resolved, one fact is becoming more and more obvious: I can't live without him...
Emotional matters are too complicated. If you can’t figure them out, don’t think about them.
Xu Suzhen decided to just get along with him in this muddled way for the time being and concentrate on developing her own career.
No matter what, dancing was the thing she loved most in the first half of her life. She focused on what she was good at and put everything else aside.
Susu can also live freely!
The woman thought so, but the opposite happened.
He thought the group's career would become a new idol benchmark as he predicted, but in the end they encountered insurmountable obstacles.
It turns out that what you can't overcome is not the obstacle, but yourself.
When faced with a public crisis, Seo Soo-jin finally realized the difference between herself and Bae Joo-hyun.
In fact, Yi Haoyan quickly resolved the bullying issue, whether it was from Bae Joo-hyun or himself.
However, facing the overwhelming condemnation online, the sister who usually looks small and soft was unexpectedly tough, and she herself was not as strong as she imagined.
The fact that the group's rise was interrupted burned my heart. The huge sense of guilt, the grievance of being wronged, and the huge pressure destroyed me.
I can't stop crying.
Unable to sleep.
All kinds of negative emotions in my mind are completely out of control.
Depression finally set in.
Seo Soo-jin knew that she might not be able to perform on stage.
(G)I-DLE’s attempt to prove his idol concept may have failed.
At this moment, the woman's heart was broken.
Both for myself and for him.
