Chapter 137: Similar to Love (4)
Liking does not equal loving, so does loving definitely not equal liking? No, Yinyin loves Zhao Ziheng because she likes him, so what about Feng Qinghan? Is it just liking? But why does Yinyin feel that there is a voice deep in her heart telling her that she loves him, and she also loves Feng Qinghan, but the kind of love she has for Zhao Ziheng is obviously different. Is it because they are not the same type of people?
"Don't you know or can't answer it?" the man asked again.
Yin Yin felt her mind was in a mess, so messy that she could not think, and it was getting more and more confused... Yin Yin, who was in confusion, did not seem to notice how the person in front of her was looking at her.
Just when that person thought Yin Yin would not answer, Yin Yin's voice suddenly rang out: "I love him."
The man was slightly stunned, not knowing whether it was because Yinyin's words were too sudden or too straightforward? But who was the target of his straightforwardness? The man waited for Yinyin's next words...
However, Yinyin fell into deep thought. She was talking about Zhao Ziheng. Although she didn't understand her feelings for Feng Qinghan, she was sure that she loved Zhao Ziheng. This was the only thing she couldn't be wrong about. But if she couldn't figure out her feelings for Feng Qinghan, then the love she had always thought of as only for one person might have been given to another person without her knowing it. This was undoubtedly a betrayal of Zhao Ziheng. If that was the case, was she still was no longer qualified to get anyone's love. She was no longer qualified to get anyone's love, especially the only love, both physically and mentally.
In fact, if it was just the body, Yin Yin could find an excuse, that is, this body was not her own, but Yin Yin would not think so, because it was her soul that was defiled. How could a body with a polluted soul be clean?
Yin Yin didn't know how much Zhao Ziheng knew about what happened to her, but for her who had recovered all her memories, there was one memory that was the darkest. That pain had been deeply imprinted on her soul and could never be erased. As long as she was alive, she would never forget it. Thinking of this, Yin Yin suddenly felt that her amnesia might not be a bad thing, at least this memory would never be awakened. However, she could not escape the arrangement of fate after all... With a soul that was dirty both in body and mind, what right did she have to be loved?
Memory is like the tide. When you don't touch it, it will be calm, but once touched, it will be as unstoppable as a raging wave. No matter how you try to suppress it, you can't stop it.
Tears flowed down Yinyin's face without warning and without a sound. The man in front of her was shocked. She found that Yinyin's heart was more difficult to understand and complicated than she had imagined. She said she loved him one minute, no matter who that person was, and the next moment she burst into tears. What made her so sad? And she saw a look of loneliness in Yinyin's eyes. Seeing this scene without any warning, the man was stunned at first, and then took out a towel to wipe the tears from Yinyin's face...
"Since you love him, why are you sad?" the man asked while wiping Yin Yin's tears.
"But I'm not worthy of it." I thought Yin Yin wouldn't answer, but unexpectedly I got an answer, although Yin Yin's voice was a little choked.
"Why am I not qualified to have it?" the person asked, because she knew there must be a story behind it.
Yin Yin choked up and replied: "I am not worthy of anyone's love, no matter who it is, especially the one I love. I am even less worthy of his love. He loves me, but I betrayed him, both physically and mentally."
After hearing Yinyin's words , the man was confused. She certainly didn't know what betrayal meant, but what did it mean to be unworthy of someone? Not even the one she loved? If one could say that betrayal was just a change of heart, then Yinyin would not say that. The man knew this very well.
"Is it because of your friend?" The man suddenly realized that Yin Yin's change occurred after she mentioned that friend, Feng Qinghan. If this happens repeatedly, even the most dull person will notice it.
Yin Yin did not answer. Her silence meant that she did not deny it. In fact, there was no need to deny it because it was the fact, so she could not escape it even if she denied it.
"When you said you loved him just now, were you referring to this friend of yours, or the person you love?" The man asked while carefully observing the changes in Yin Yin's expression. Even the slightest change seemed to not escape her eyes.
"I know that I love that person, the one in my heart, but for him, I..." Yin Yin admitted and expressed the confusion in her heart truthfully. She just knew that she loved Zhao Ziheng, but she could not deny that she did not love Feng Qinghan. No one could understand this feeling, and no one could understand her mood at this moment.
The person in front of her was silent. She stared at Yin Yin steadily, with no change in her expression. She maintained this posture for a long time. Fortunately, Yin Yin didn't pay attention to anything because of her own thoughts. The person just spoke and said: "Do you love your friend too?"
Yinyin was silent again. Did this silence mean she didn't deny it? Yinyin wanted to nod or shake her head, because she really couldn't figure out what kind of love she had for Feng Qinghan. Did she regard him as her life partner? No, she couldn't be sure, and couldn't even be sure... It was as if she had lost the qualification to make such a choice.
